Good Morning Vietnam
The first movie I saw a comedian doing more than just comedy. I wasn’t really allowed to watch this movie as a kid, but I watched it at my friend’s house over and over and over again. I can QUOTE this movie.
My heart soared every time I saw him as Pan. How could a grown up play a believable child? I don’t know, but there he was!
Good Will Hunting
C’mon. This guy is a comedian, he can’t…oh my god. I am crying. I understand all of these relationships. I get this. I GET THIS.
One Hour Photo
Ok. That was creepy.
What a range.
He did things against his “actor brand” and succeeded. He broke boundaries all of the time. He tried. He failed. He tried some more. He stepped on to the stages of UCB, iO West, and many other comedy venues and shared the stage with a variety of comedians and gave them so many memories they can reflect upon. He gave a variety of gifts to so many people.
But that voice inside his head.
That fucking voice.
Anyone who has truly battled with the voice or feeling or whatever of depression, you know. You get it. It is VERY VERY hard to fight on your own. It is difficult to seek out help. All we, as fans and friends and family can do and say is, “Please get help.” (Please click this sentence to read someone’s experience of depression to get an idea of what it is like to live with depression)
I got help.
Then I didn’t, but then I did.
I’m fine now. I have experienced post traumatic stress disorder that leaned heavily on depression after I survived a very serious car accident. I don’t have an inkling of a thought of depression in my head anymore. I found what works for me. Being depressed isn’t always about just being sad, but there can be more elements of sadness for some people more than others. Working in the entertainment industry can be very stressful and, often times, lonely. The entertainment industry can often make sadness and self doubt much worse. There are a lot of judgments and opinions floating around that you can easily buy into as true for you. But that’s just it. Those things aren’t true. And sometimes the chemical make up in your brain can’t tell the difference between the real truth, the real guts within you, and the stuff you think people are saying or judging or whatevering.
If you need help, please allow yourself to be helped.
As for Robin…
I love Robin Williams as an actor/artist that I never personally knew.
I wish I could have met him.
I am grateful for his being.
I am grateful for his bravery.
Robin, thank you for being with us for as long as you could.
What else is possible? Right?
NOTE FROM THE WRITER: Ok. 2nd draft as of Aug 14, 2014. It will probably get tweaked again. We’ll see.